Episode 2: Venus Retrograde + Balance

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Huh. Well, they wouldn't be listening if they weren't alive. Can you. Do you think you can hear after you're alive or after you're dead? Do you think you can hear?

I believe in spirits, if you like, spirit guides or ancestors. They're like, all around you all the time. And, like, if you're listening to this and you're a spirit guide. Yeah. All right. Yeah. There's people in this house right now.

Don't, you’re giving me the heebie jeebies? Yes. I mean, I believe that, but I'm just like, oh, OK. Anyways, hi. Hi.

Rando Okay. Yeah. And I know that's the mood, mood that we're in right now. Or at least I am!

Okay. So before we got on here, I drew a couple Oracle cards and just asking my guides what we should talk about today.

And because last time we did it, it turned out really amazing. So we thought we'd try it again like this. Yeah, it was really, really helpful.

So it's balance in romance were the two cards that came up. And I think it's interesting because we're in Venus retrograde right now. I'm not an astrologer, but I consume this information like candy.

It's all new to me. I'm like what's Venus retrograde ****** up. That's what I want to know. Like retrograde. Get me on here. Oh my God, no.

I think retrogrades get a really bad rap because retrogrades are all about revisiting the past, things that need to be healed coming forward, right? Yeah, right. And so like Mercury retrograde, we're really familiar with that, that like F’s up technology all the time, F’s up communication. But Mercury retrograde encourages you to slow down and we're going to be in a retrograde on the 23rd of Mercury of Mercury August 23rd.

I know, God, that's like my least favorite. I need to up the anxiety medicine. It gives me anxiety. It's cuz the communication breakdown. Like I can't like the 23rd on I won't be able to form words. I won't be able to form sentences. Like Mercury retrograde affects me like crazy. That's really funny. I wonder.

I need to look at your astrology chart. I just think it's interesting because you're a fire sign. And also in human design, you're in Mani Gen. So you're just like, bam, bam, bam, fast. You like, move really quickly. Yeah. And Mercury asks you to slow down when it's in retrograde. It asks you to slow down and review your plans for things.

And like, well, no wonder I don't like it. I don't. I hate slowing down. Like I either have to hermit out and like, hide away or I don't slow down on anything. And reviewing. I don't want to review this podcast. Like, I don't want to review anything. I know because looking back then, you have to deal with a bunch of ****. Like who wants to do that?

That's the whole thing about Virtuality is that's this whole thing. That's why we created this podcast. No. But like, no. I get it. Like, no. I and I've like this last year and a half, two years. Like I've been working really hard and slowing down and like and looking back and trying to fix things and healing things right and but it causes me great anxiety. Like, legitimately, I will have to up my anxiety medicine for Mercury retrograde. Like, because it just, it communication breaks down and, like, just all of it. Yeah. I mean, like, any time you try to do anything quickly. Yeah, it blows up in my face.

Yeah. If you're late to work, like all the red lights, slowest car in front of you, construction, you're gonna hit it all. Yeah. Yeah. And that week I'm starting my new job too. So I've got to sit in all. Well, yeah. So we'll release this next week. Yeah. So I'll be starting my job on the 21st of August. And Oh no, you're probably going to feel it the week before. So usually there's like a shadow and then like a post shot. Yeah, I get about four or five days before. Yeah. Oh, I don't have time to slow down next week when I'm on vacation. But The thing is it's like this is not going to work out very well. I'm going to hideaway.

But it's in the slowing down that you actually speed up.

Ohh, it propels me forward every time. Yeah, exactly. Like when we slow down and take time to like review and like to really sit with ourselves, that's when growth happens. And you have like,

I wanna say I I just use the word astronomical because this like came up again. But it's just like you grow past your, your last limit, right. Because you sat with it and then yeah, it just springboards you forward.

Ohh 100%. And if I can focus on that. Yeah. While we're in, now that I know it's a slowing down too. Yeah. If I can't like even right now I'm just like ohh heavy in my chest. If I can focus on slow down because it will launch you forward. Yeah. Like the arrow, like I always use the arrow is that launching forward, right. Like to pull back so you can launch forward. I think maybe it'll be easier this time now that I've pictured that kind of idea. Yeah.

Well, I mean, like even in this business during that time things were going to come to life light for us like, oh, little things that we dropped, little balls that we dropped that like, Oh well, we need to rethink this, this, this structure or this foundation. And so like, in the moment, at least for me in the past, whenever I would see things like that, they needed tweaking, I'd get really down on myself and I'd be like, why did I do that before? Or like think that I'm a failure but it's like, no, this is just universe being like hey, you missed this. Let's fix it now while we're in this like slowdown phase. Right. While we can, while we can as opposed to like go go going and let it like let that issue that foundation.

That was the issue in the foundation just like going unseen and like once you've built a whole bunch let things crumble. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. Like I'm picturing like the foundation having a little crack in it that you can fix before you build the house on it. Yeah. And so it's gonna slow. OK Yeah. And so that's usually what it does. But like where people. So when it comes to Venus retrograde, Yeah. And you know, this all does have to do with balance. It's like if you don't go with the flow of the universal energies or like your own energy or wherever, like the universe is guiding you, then you're going to be out of balance. This is finding balance within yourself and within those energies.

But hold on. Yeah. OK. But when you, when I first got into the spiritual path, I was like, well, I need to like, manifest with the full and new moons. And I need to do this ceremony a certain way. And like, ohh, yeah, right. You dive right into it. You dive right into it the same way that you did when you were really, at least when I was really Christian. Yeah. And like, alcohol's bad because it's going to lower your vibration. Well, yeah, yeah, it does, Right. But also like you can do everything with intention and find balance in that way. And like,

I don't think there are rules. I think the rules are internal. I think it's all man created rules like, yeah, people have put those rules on you. There's nothing like and it's the balance of it all like if you're going to do crappy things, do a couple nice things too.

No, But what I mean is like your balance is going to look different, different. Like I like I have a different energetic lmake up than you and I'm an Earth sign and have very, very little fire in my life. But I need that 20% Elizabeth in my life and the people around me with that fire to like get me going. But then like the amount of wine I'm able to partake in is different than like say my husband or yeah or you. You know it's just different and I think I think it's learning. It goes back to getting to know yourself, getting to know your own energy, getting to know, like, what works for you, and trusting yourself, which goes back to, like, slowing down and being willing to slow down and like look back and like lean into these retrograde moments.

Did you just hear me sigh at the same time the lights flickered in your house? Like, your energy was like, stop that. Yeah, because it's a big thing. Like, I mean, I know, yeah, you have to have the balance. You can't. I mean, we were just talking before we started recording, like we were talking about that burnout fatigue and like how much it affects me physically. And I will go, go, go, go, go and I will balls to the walls. I like all of it. And it's just not good. And I've started. I'm hoping that I'm going to combat it as I go into this new job and go back to school and run this business. Right. And I hope I'm going to be able to slow down. Like I told the kids a couple weeks ago, mandatory Sunday night dinner. Like we're going to have all of us sit down and we're going to have dinner on Sunday nights, right? Like, I still got to call my big one. Hey, if you're listening, big kid, I haven't told you yet. Don't worry. I'm going to call you and tell you this. But like when I go back to school, like, right, we're going to need that slow down time. We're, I'm going to need that like refocus, right.

Because it's going to be a lot. I'm doing a lot and you've got to be able to balance it across the board. And I think I've got to balance it with self-care for me, you know, and for my family and for the one I love and like all that. Like, you know, I've got to be able to balance all of it. Say no's gonna be huge. I'm gonna have to say no. Yeah. Like I already told people, some of my quality time is gonna be me sitting on the couch next to them while I do school work. You can watch your movie, but I'm gonna be doing school work, right? But that'll be my quality time. That's how I'm gonna love on you. That's how I'm gonna show you I care.

How are you gonna know when or how do you know when it's become too much? When you're like when you aren't pushing yourself past your limits?

I don't. That's always been my hardest thing. I have a really hard time. And is that the Mani Gen in me?

Well, Mani Gens tend to like go, go, go and they have a lot of different interests and they have a lot of energy. So the ones that I've known have pushed themselves so far to being detrimental to their health.

Yeah, that's what I end up doing. So that's what I tend to do. I'll end up getting like a five day migraine where I can't get out of bed and I'm puking in like the whole 9 yards. Right. And that's my enneagram 3 too. Yeah. So my enneagram 3 is that achiever. And I can't show somebody. I failed, and I can't show somebody I'm weak and I can't ask for help, right. And so it's like all these things is who I am. Like,

I'm going to ride to the airport tomorrow, like, I'm going to LA for a funeral. And he offered to take me to the airport. I'm like, no, you don't have to do that. Like, he's like, no, let me take you to the airport. How about I drive your car and I'll clean your car out too, while you're gone. And I'm like, wait, no, no, no, no, no. Like, no. You don't have to do that. Like, I can't even allow help like that. And that's just such a stupid thing, right? Like it's not for somebody for somebody to. No, but for somebody to clean out my car, like and wash my windows, right? Like the inside of my car needs to be cleaned out. It hasn't been cleaned out. It's summertime. It's a mess, you know? And I can't even allow that. Like, it's crazy to me.

So, like, it'll feel uncomfortable. Yeah. But you're gonna let him do it?

Yeah. Reluctantly.

And so, like, track, track what that feels like in your body because like, I've, I, I really relate with you on this, right? With with Tom. Especially in our beginning, at the beginning of a relationship and even now because, like, we haven't been together for, like that long. And I'm still, I still have like, wounds, like old wounds for my old relationship. But I don't know. Once I started letting him, like, give, Yeah. And like, and I started learning how to receive. I don't know, It's like my parts of my body that were like stone or like, so tense before, just like, relax a little bit. Yeah. And like all of a sudden the warmth and the softness starts to come in. And then it's like that feeling, right? Same thing like when I was first out of the other relationship, all of a sudden I realized I was crying so much more. I was like feeling all these emotions so much more because I felt safe doing it. And so it's like, I don't know, I'm really curious to see where you're going to be next year talking about this or listening to this.